Broken Doll

We’ve stopped dating, he says.   He’s moved on.  We’re friends, not a couple.

So I feel like the lessons learned from my relationship with David have backfired on me here. I didn’t think it would be a good idea to continue on faith that “somehow” we’d find a way, when neither of us had any idea at all what that “somehow” might be. So we ended it, and a week later I find that there is some wiggle room, which could possibly lead to a solution if we examine it… but it comes too late. At the time HE wanted to wait and see and take “somehow” on faith, and I thought that would just be dragging things out… now it turns out I was wrong, and I miss out because no matter how well I try to plan or prepare or use the lessons I’ve learned, it always ends up going the wrong way.

I’m tired. No matter what I do, I can’t win.  And I’m just never special enough to anyone to be worth fighting for.