Broken Doll

“You know the problem with fair-weather friends?  They’re never around with an umbrella when it rains.”

The distance between me and him yawns lightyears across. I am dull and blank and feeling through thick dirty cotton. Unplugged. The more disconnected I am from the world, the more disconnected I am from myself.

My sexuality is dying and I think I will stop loving everything, anything, soon. The fire is out.

some things are worse than death.

Kinky holiday stocking.

Yeah. I remember last Yule I was begging for the light to return.

I’m still waiting.

Power?  Really?  And where exactly is this power manifesting?

Your Spiritual Number is One

You bring a strong, positive energy into other people’s lives. Your intentions are pure, and because of this, you are powerful when you act. Right now, your life is both about new beginnings and closure. It’s not an understatement to say that your whole world is changing. No matter what comes to pass, you are ready to tackle it. You have the ambition and drive to have your life turn out the way you want it to.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

I am trying to come up with a reason to keep living, keep breathing tonight.

I can’t.

I can’t think of anyone to call who would listen to me, either. I’ve been protecting Mom from this, you know.

I don’t even have someone who would come to feed the cats.

Your result for Personality Elements Assay … Listener / Counselor

-8 Earth, 3 Air, -3 Fire and 8 Water!

You have one of the seven Water personalities. Water is the solvent that blends things together and flows through pretty much everything alive. Water personalities tend to care about the connections between people and emotions and caring. If you were a doctor, you’d care about how your patient felt.

The Listener is also the Counselor, depending on whether one is introverted or extroverted (sorry, didn’t test for which). You deeply care about people and have enough creativity and sense of right and wrong to generally figure out what is good for them. You don’t like to go out and muck with your friends’ lives personally, but might put a word into someone else’s ear to make something happen. For you it is more about knowing people than doing things.